i'm a liar
it's my secret no one knows
i'm a liar
yeah, i know it doesn't show
no. i don't miss you anymore
no, i don't think of you
it's such a game to seem adored
no, i don't love you anymore
i'm a liar
yeah, i've given up my wings
i'm a liar
they were only wax and string
no, i don't miss you anymore
no, i don't think of you
it's such a game to seem adored
no, i don't love you anymore

The first time I heard this song I sobed like a little girl... jeje, my brother truely knows how and what to hit me with. It's become one of my favourites.

Here I lie, naked in my bed, not being able to get off my mind that he broke his last promise to me... not knowing if I should feel silly because I actually thought he would fullfill at least one of all his promises or feel sad because I had to find out by the most casual coment in the world from my mother...

I guess I fill silly... I really thought he would at least go thrugh with his last promise... I really did. I believe in you so blindly that I fell and hit my self so hard over the years... and yet I kept on going. When no one trusted you, I defended you. When you lost faith in yourself I stood by you and held your hand. When you where abandoned, I kept my heart by your side, so you wouldn't feel lonely.

I gave you everything and you sucked me dry... and I filled my self up again, just so you could suck me dry again... how foolish of me.

But I must confess that I gave up my wings gladly for you... and I'd probably do it again even if you hadn't asked me to. I'm not sorry...

If you only knew what bad timing you picked to leave... we where always together... I was so used to your company, to that strange way your hands have of warming my cold fingers. No matter how much crap happened, having you by my side made me feel strong an invincible... I had a giant by my side, I must me a giant too, ne?

Whatever happened, happened... and even if your not here when I most need you, I don't care. I hope your happy... truely happy. I hope she has what you need, I hope she won't walk out on you, I hope you don't screw this one up... please, don't screw this one up, give yourself the chance.

The past is the past, leave it back there where it belongs... the people that are gone are gone and what you have now is yours, take care of it, even better than you took care of me, protect her even if you leave me completly unsheltered, understand her, nourish her... don't make the same mistakes thrice.

With loving care

AremiBu
TheBlueButterfly